Wherever Renate Rubinstein went there was uproar. Starting in 1961, she regularly caused a furor with the pieces she published. Whether it was on her love life; how she missed her father, murdered during the war; feminism or her love of cats, her writing always attests to an autonomous spirit – and her voice brings to mind Joan Didion. She wrote openly about her Jewish roots and her ambivalent attitude towards Israel. Her account of her painful divorce, Nothing to Lose and Yet Afraid, became an international classic. The columns, lectures and letters gathered in this anthology offer the reader an intimate portrait of an ambivalent woman, who never shied away from telling herself and others the truth.